A Cunning look back of 30 days which have changed
my life over the past 30 years
Day 20: 26th
May 2007 – I’ll be back, one day
"Even if you stumble, you're moving forward."
Evening all,
The decision to leave Nottingham Trent Uni was a decision which was let
lead me down a difficult and uneasy path which i have to say made me realise
how life can be difficult at times.
But i was determined to try and make the best of a bad situation.
However, that didn’t even work as the way i hoped.
After all troubles that i went through, I knew eventually i had to leave
– for my own sake. And when i left Nottingham i knew i can restart my life all
over again.
The day i left was the 26th May 2007, but what exactly
happened during my life between February and May 2007. Well let me tell you.
My initial plan was to stay and continue to work for Currys in Nottingham
although i wanted to move back to Canterbury to work for my old team again, i
felt that i wanted to help out the team where i currently work.
However, i was working for long hours for 7 days at a time i never get
anytime to myself. This lead to me not eating properly as my main source of
income was spent on my rent where i was living. This made me very sad
I was also not sleeping properly as well at this time because my mind
was still in the belief that i was going to be working as a reporter and not
living what was the real life.
I was also practically living on a food budget of £10 A MONTH!!! Which i did manage to stretch to get a meal
and a drink every day but i was not getting any goodness inside of me.
I was also not very social at this time as well. I had a massive fall
out with my colleagues one evening and i tried to patch things up but they weren’t
listening to me so connecting with people at this time was very difficult. I
also tried to have a relationship with a work colleague but she wasn’t interested
in me at all. This continued to add to my sadness of how i was feeling at the
time.
Later on this period, the sadness of what happened caught up with me, i
was in a period where i was thinking about taking my own life as i felt that i disappointed
myself and my family. But after a trip to the doctor i was told that i was on
the verge of being clinically depressed and i had to leave in order to rebuild
my life.
So a phone call was made to my mum and stepdad and two letters of
resignation were sent out to my boss and my landlord and within a three week
period i was packed and ready to leave.
I left Nottingham on the 26th May 2007, as i was leaving i
felt that coming here was the right thing to do at the time but it turned out
to be a bad decision in the end.
But i knew that i would be coming back to Nottingham eventually to
complete what i stared back in 2006.
But how was i going to recover what happened to me from the first time?
PS. There are no pictures to take from
this time as i was not in a position to take pictures of my life at this point.
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